It's the most wonderful time of the year! Don't cue the Christmas music just yet though because, for me, this time is called SUMMER BREAK!
After the worst school year possible, both inside and out of the classroom, I am relaxing daily this favorite perk of teaching. After discovering I had Hashimoto's and completing a round of Whole 30 and then completely falling off the health wagon, I said that the summer would be a "self-care summer" and I intend to start on Monday.
The worst part of my disease is not the fatigue, the random rashes that pop up on my elbow pits, or the brain fog. The worst part of Hashimoto's for me is the weight gain. I think the anxiety/depression comes because of the weight gain. It really sucks. Gaining weight and then being so self-conscious about it. "I'm sure he/she is thinking, 'Wow! Meagan has put on some weight!'" or "Good Lord! She's gotten huge!" are the thoughts that flood my mind every time I step out of the house, so being a homebody has been the only thing to fit me lately.
My clothes don't fit. I am having to buy larger pants sizes, and bigger bras. I lack the confidence I had years ago when I was thinner. When I was thin. I wish I could gain that back instead of or along with the weight.
With that being said, this summer will be a self-care summer. I plan to eat healthier, take probiotics, and relax. I'm staying as far away for school as I possibly kind both physically and emotionally. I'm going to be active at the gym and walking my pups. I'm going to sell the crap out of Beautycounter and possibly even find a new recruit. I'm changing my mindset because I have Hashimoto's, it does NOT and WILL NOT have me.
